The Thesis

Well its official.....

I have finally submitted the complete thesis to my department for consideration of the award of the degree of Masters in English. I can only hope and pray that I get through and am able to graduate and leave the place which has caused me no end of hell and strife. 

My supervisor is one of the hardest to please so that based on the fact that she told me to submit it, I can only think two things.
1. Its ready for examination and I stand a good chance of being awarded or
2. She's fed up of me and wants me out.

Its the pessimist inside of me and the self-doubter that rears its ugly head in times like these.

I  thought that I would be happier than this but I'm not, I don't really feel that much beyond numbness. I'm glad that it no longer has my attention but at the same time, now its the waiting game from hell so that isn't much better.

Its raining relentlessly here and frankly it suits my mood absolutely, we've been flooded out twice so far and yet we aren't allowed to leave and go home.

Dread I don't wonder its all about just sometimes now, now I wonder what life is for all the time.

The current state of lj is depressing me and writing about the bad things depresses me further. I'm begining to think that I'll eventually stop posting altogether.

In the eventuality of that, I'd like to  thank everyone who've made me their mutual friend. I was great to read your posts on fic, life and stuff in general. I hope that I haven't bored you all too much with my musings and silly ponderings. 

Thanks for listening and commenting on whatever struck your fancy on this lj.