For me, insanity is super sanity. The normal is psychotic.

Everything seems to be on the down for me lately. Personal and online life has been slow and depressing. I thought that graduating with a Masters degree would make some sort of difference in my life but really its just made me more depressed over the things that I don't have and am stupidly jealous of other's having.

I did a quiz to see my result and I got a depressing song. *sigh* story of my life once again. I've gained weight, look ugly in my white grad dress and don't seem to be on speaking terms with anyone really at the moment. I'm getting into that black mood again.

Your Theme Song is Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd

"There is no pain, you are receding. A distant ship smoke on the horizon. You are only coming through in waves." You haven't been feeling a lot lately, and you think that's a good thing. The comfortable part is nice... but you should really work on numb.

Figures as much.

Its been a really tough couple of days. There was a bit of drama that is now sorted out during Thursday and Friday.

On Saturday I went to lunch with two persons from the office. We had a very relaxing and pleasant time despite the fact that I had been thinking to blow them off since I was upset about the events of the previous two days. After lunch my brother came to meet us in the Mall and we all limed around until 3.30 pm. My original plan was to stay in the Mall until it was time to go to the Airport but the hordes of people in the Mall changed my mind.  My bro and I went to my apartment where I went to sleep and he went online. At 7.09 pm we left the house, at 7. twenty-somethingish we parked in Piarco and at 7. forty-fiveish we picked up our package.

People I am pleased to announce that MY MUMMY IS HOME!!!!!!!! My dad is home also but MY MUMMY!!!!!! is back. YAAAAAAY!

I feel like a child on Christmas day. She brought me back so many goodies and there is more to come in the form of shipped barrels. *sigh* My mummy loves her big kids.

I only had this weekend with her as I had to go back to work right away. I arrived at my apartmentSunday evening  where we all puttered around, had dinner and then everyone left to go home. As I was walking back to my room what do I see but the little stay cat I called Nero that I've been feeding lying motionless on the ground. Suffice it to say I had a breakdown immediately. People I am a big cat person. I love them to bits. I feed strays, I tear up when I see one that has been killed on the road and for me to see one that I've been babying barely breathing just threw me for a loop. There are no 24 hour pet care centers nearby and I didn't have anywhere to go or anywhere I could carry him. I could only put food and water and hope for the best.

I barely slept and this morning when I looked for him he wasn't lying there anymore. I didn't go searching for  him because I thought that he may have crept away to die and that made me really upset. Work was awful as the fire alarm kept going off and they wouldn't send us home. The building was full of fumes and still we had to stay there and work. It was terrible. As I reached home what did I see but Nero lying in the walkway again. I couldn't let another night pass without doing something. I called a vet clinic that I found in the yellow pages and they agreed to stay open long enough for me to bring him in.

I told him I wasn't going to hurt him and picked him up, put him in a box and carried him to the clinic. He was a bit more active on the way there but it may have been because he was hurting and I started to cry on the way. When I arrived the doctor was really nice especially since I couldn't stop crying. I was a right mess. He examined him, flushed a wound that was swollen and pus-filled and gave him antibiotics. I asked if they could keep him and contact the Humane Society that we have here as it wasn't feasible for me to take him back to the apartment. They agreed and I left still in tears but my heart wasn't hurting as it was when I thought that I may have had to put him down. Nero seemed much more alert after the treatment and Dr. James said that he knew someone who would be willing to adopt him as he's a fairly young cat. I really hope so because it broke my heart to see him hurting.

I am just sorry that I couldn't take him in but I live alone, work whole day and I live in a one bedroom apartment. I couldn't leave him locked in my room for the entire day and I didn't want to leave him to the mercy of the elements outside. I'm still a bit upset but I hope that I helped the situation as I couldn't bear it to come home and see him there in pain again. My head feels swollen as I've been crying for the last couple of hours. I think that I'm going to take an early night as my heart is still really heavy and my eyes won't stop running water...

Ok emo post is cut to preserve the sanity of others .