For me, insanity is super sanity. The normal is psychotic.

Currently at 7.51 pm on July 7, 2009, I am crying like a baby watching the highlights from today's service. I held everything in at work while I watched the stream on ABCnews but as I was washing dishes tonight it really hit me that he is gone. Michael Jackson is dead and gone and now buried and the world is all the more darker.

I've been fine for the last two weeks but today finally drove the point home.

Rest in Peace Michael and wherever in the wild yonder you may roam, may you always be remembered as an Entertainer, Philanthropist and a kind and loving human being.

Love you forever.

In Memoriam:-

No one's death comes to pass without making some impression, and those close to the deceased inherit part of the liberated soul and become richer in their humanness.
Author: Hermann Broch

Those who focused on the shock of shards as the phoenix bird burst from his shell nearly missed the sight of his wondrous maiden flight as he soared up and away and out of sight.
Author: Saiom Shriver

Death is as sure for that which is born, as birth is for that which is dead. Therefore grieve not for what is inevitable.
Author: Bhagavad Gita

Life is a great sunrise. I do not see why death should not be an even greater one.
Author: Vladimir Nobokov

There is no death! What seems so is transition; This life of mortal breath is but a suburb of the life elysian, whose portal we call Death.
Author: Henry W. Longfellow

Death is the liberator of him whom freedom cannot release, the physician of him whom medicine cannot cure, and the comforter of him whom time cannot console.
Author: Charles Caleb Colton

To be in a world which is a hell, to be of that world and neither to believe in or guess at anything but that world is not merely hell but the only possible damnation: the act of a man damning himself. It may be -- I hope it is -- redemption to guess and perhaps perceive that the universe, the hell which we see for all its beauty, vastness, majesty, is only part of a whole which is quite unimaginable.
Author: William Golding

I believe that everything you do bad comes back to you. So everything that I do that's bad, I'm going to suffer for it. But in my heart, I believe what I'm doing is right. So I feel like I'm going to heaven.
Author: Tupac Shakur

Because I could not stop for death He kindly stopped for me The carriage held but just ourselves And immortaility.
Author: Emily Dickinson

When he shall die Take him and cut him in little stars And he will make the face of heaven so fine That all the world will be in love with night And pay no worship to the garish sun.
Author: William Shakespeare

Au Revoir MJ.

I haven't been able to check my flist every hour as I usually do as I am completely swamped with work but I got a 5 mins and saw this post on seperis 's lj.....SGA NOT RENEWED! Oh god the Humanity...I am totally heartbroken right now. This is horrible news and I don't know what to think. Yes there are going to be spin-off movies but *god* no more friday night love. The mind boggles....and now I have to go back to work. FANDOM! can we protest at all?  Online Petition or something? 

I'm not being uplifted by the work I do and it has me down in the dumps a bit. Things in academia are drawing to a close but things at work aren't progressing at all. The song "Outside" by Staind  really captures that feeling aside of course from the lament of lost love. I really feel as though I am on the outside looking in I mean I get to work, am pleasant to everyone, wish them a good morning and over the course of the day I just feel more and more isolated especially when I move around between offices and note the camaderie among the different employees. Is it just me, am I reading too much into it? I dunno but dread I don't like feeling this way. The last time I felt this bad I moved apartments, I just may have to change jobs. I don't want to get that close to cutting myself off from everything again as I did over the whole horrid roommate mess.

Maybe I'm depressed but still I just hate feeling non-productive and apart from everyone else. Trust me when I say that when feel this way nothing ever gets done.  I just wish I could be less sensitive sometimes

  

I think that I am going to collect all of these posts and write a book about the trials and tribulations of the working woman. Dread I've been in a state of disbelief for the last couple of days, what with harsh words from the boss and moving stress, now I find out that the person who works with me and was supposed to take over my job has been offered a permanent position somewhere else. Dread I don't know how to feel. With her gone effective April 1st, everything, the work of three people falls back onto me. I haven't been able to calm down since. I feel really ill and my stomach has been doing air-rolls since I got the news yesterday. I was up for some leave in March about 2 weeks and now that she is leaving there will be no-one to work the desk which means no leave for me. I'm still going to apply for it though since I will go mad if I can't get some downtime.

I have been working none stop for an entire year and I'm ridiculously tired, of course no-one cares about that. Is this a common occurence, hard workers are penalised for the slightest infraction and slackers are praised? 'Cause I gotta tell you, it sure seems that way. I really am beginning to hate work. Honestly if  the opportunity to retreat from the world with money , cable and wireless internet came my way, I would do so in a heartbeat. I'm so tired of having to deal with people face to face, I'm seriously developing an intense dislike for everyone in my workplace. Sometimes I feel that they are all deterrents to my life and I'm really tired of everything. Dread its becoming so hard to drag myself out every morning to get to work and frankly I'm giving some serious thought to just not doing it anymore........Doing anything for that matter, after all what's the point anyway, its not as though anyone cares.

I wish everything would just go away.