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[romyra]

Ok emo post is cut to preserve the sanity of others .

So yeah, I've been absent except for a few quizzes and I do have my reasons. Basically I got back the first draft of my thesis for corrections and well even though I knew I would still have work to do it still depressed me to no end especially since I've reached fed-up point at this stage. I have 14 days to fix it and dread with work and all  its gonna be difficult, but I will prevail I hope since having reached this point  I'm already depressed about not graduating. I don't know why I put myself through this....I don't think I even care about my masters anymore since its not like I'm gonna use it ever.  Its just really hard not to fall into this black hole of depression that I've been fighting since 2006 when I realised that I was no where near to completion.   

Everyday is an uphill battle with this thing and motivation is lacking since there is no-one with me on this, I have no one to bounce ideas off of and frankly I hate the system since I'm in it as a student and an employee. I don't have any sort of advisor even, this place is so backward and retarded in those respects. I just am really tired of it all right now and at times I really feel as though I could break my mom's heart and just work instead of finishing this level. I'm so not enthused at all

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[roxymissrose.livejournal.com]

Sorry I can't be of help to you, but I can offer hugs. *HUG*

[romyra]

Thanks for the support...I just really really feel depressed, out of sorts and tired