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[romyra]

I can hardly believe that its the first of June already. It signifies the beginning of the crunch period and scary stress period that is Admissions. I think that I'm mostly on top of things this time around but dread you can never predict what will happen next. I have so many things to do and I really hope that I will get the kind of help that I really need. I may have to work late for the next few weeks as I have an important meeting to plan for and dread its gonna be a doozy.

I have been asked my plans for the future regarding my job. Well some of you may know that the whole reason I took my current job was to have something to do that paid while I wrote my Masters Thesis and waited on word of my graduation prospects. Well I've handed the final revised thesis up and now the next notification should be an aye or a nay...I'm desperately hoping that its the former. Anyway I've been asked if I'm willing to stay on for another year long period and frankly being as that:-

a. Job-hunting sucks
b. Trinidad really doesn't have things  that I am interested in
c. I'm good at what I do even though I hate it
d. Its close to home and familiar

I've indicated that yes I'm willing to stay on for at least a year again, but this time I've made sure to state that I will be leaving in April or so of 2009 because I intend to apply to JET this year and god should my application be accepted I will be leaving the country in July 2009.

I really really really need something new in my life as I've fallen into a real rut. I've been on my own for 7 years. 7 years where the high times have been out weighed by the lows. I've experienced really terrible bouts of depression and frankly I think that I'd like to go somewhere new where I can make a fresh start and where no-one knows me and my bad habits. Its really difficult to make a fresh start when all around you are reminders of how poorly you've done some things. I've let people get too close and its starting to get to me especially when people feel they have the right to tell me things just to see the reaction that they know I'll give. I don't like being predictable and that's how I feel I've become.

I want something new, different and worthwhile.

I have a friend who's embraced being a hermit in the truest sense of the word.
Another has found religion.....

I don't understand either but I'm willing to give them the benefit of the doubt.

I think that its my turn next to find something to devote myself too. Something that brings me happiness. Something that is mine and is untainted by the  world.....

On a more serious or lighter note depending how you look at it...I wish that those fully functional androids would hurry up and be created. I could use one of those in my life right about now, and when I say fully functional I mean that in the truest sense of the word. Give me programming and internal power source over messy human relationships anyday.

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[wicked-liz.livejournal.com]

Tell me what is making you so unhappy, so I CAN KILL IT.

D:

Being a hermit continues to entertain me, Mum thinks that the JET thing is cool too - Switzerland is very nice to live too.

I think I would like to live in Singapore, cause it's beautiful and the food is amazing.

(-_- was first person here and had page open for days with the response - sometimes I need to ask myself WTF? >.>)

[romyra]

lol...I'm really feeling the JET thing this year. I'd really like to do a little bit of jet-setting. I know about that missing out on the first comment bit.